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Thursday, March 31, 2005

Damn it. Itz not worth staying till 3 in the morning to do mrp at all. Everything bad seems to be happening to me nowadays. fvck

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4:23 PM
*************** Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Nowadays for some reason i feel so empty inside, like a lost soul. Haha this just doesn't feel good nor does it feel right. Looking at "killer waves" on channel 5 just now, i started to wonder..wonder..what if one day we're gone and the last thing we did was our math homework or even the major research paper. Peaceful death? Maybe..but perhaps not. It's just the irony of life. Pursue of passion isn't what life really allows people to do nowadays. But it's not much use brooding over it unless i can change it anyway. I miss bball alot man..people that see me might think that i'm feeling happy. Oh well, continue to think that way(: Cuz i myself dunno exactly how i'm feeling now. I'm not really sad, definitely not happy. Just feeling...empty.

From Good Charlotte - I just wanna live
I just wanna live
Dont really care about the things that they say
Dont really care about what LIFE does to me
I just wanna live

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11:10 PM
*************** Tuesday, March 22, 2005

School today was just..school, as usual. It couldn't be any more monotonous. But oh well this is just life. Obs is on the 8th week if im not wrong.
Hmm..is there anything to look forward to..

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6:45 PM
*************** Monday, March 21, 2005

im tired im exhausted im dead beat. yupyupyup and im sorta grounded too. oh how i love my life. andrew is a happy guy. dots.

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10:27 PM
*************** Saturday, March 19, 2005

Sheesh i miss bball now. Havent really played for 2 weeks. Dots. Thanks to all those that cared and who wished me happy bday(: I do appreciate it ppl. Oh and today was c&c test. I think i did quite well, at least. Hope i did..but we were tekaned nevertheless. Stan was saying something he being pissed bout someone not coming for training for so long and yet he could pass. Yea i'm pissed bout that as well. Just that i exhausted every ounce of strength that i could muster so i did not voice it out. Oh well some ppl should be more sensitive to others as well. It's not as if the whole world owes you something.

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11:59 PM

My keyboard can finally work again. That's wonderfull. Yup that is. It was my birthday yesterday. x) Didn't do much.
Went out in the morning to national archives of singapore to research for mrp-.- and went to queensway for a while cuz yuhan wanted to look at shoes. After that met up with my mum and did some stuff bout bank accounts. Mmhmm i wanted to play bball but then the court near my hse is under some renovation. Darn. It better remain as a bball court there><

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11:59 PM
*************** Saturday, March 12, 2005

I'm feeling much better now. Thanks to those who cared(: I truly appreciate it. Oh well, 3 main problems now that i face are studies, ncc and my 'body condition'(okay thas temporary).
Studies, well im gonna prove to everyone and perhaps people would see a new me and i will definitely mug more.
Nc, well what i can say is that certain people just are not sensitive enough. Selfish would be too strong a word to be used. But anyway, im not exactly concerned now as i have been proven that it is not much use being too enthu. I do not want to say much about this but it is human nature so we can't change that. For me, i just need a reasonable post after taking over and then ORD happily with my platoonmates in the following year. That, would make me happy, for now. Perhaps my perspective would change. But then again...perhaps not...
Lastly, unless u ppl do not know, i have just recovered from having a sore throat and a fever. Not exactly fully recovered though. My voice has been croaky since a few days and now it is almost gone due to nc. Some people are just not sensitive enough. Self-centred maybe? Also, my sprained wrist is giving me problems to add on my already uncopable pile of problems. It seriously affects a lot of stuff, though it might not be obvious. Believe it or not, I have not handled a bball for a verry long time already, that it, since my wrist injury.
Okay I've thrashed it out within myself. Perhaps now people can see why im feeling suicidal. But don't worry i won't kill myself. I might be retarded in certain subjects but im still smart generally:p okay im just trying to cheer myself up.

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1:03 AM
*************** Tuesday, March 08, 2005

kay the friendlies was a disaster. cuz there were only like 3 teams. of course, we were overpowered. the other 2 teams were stronger many areas and there wuz height and age differences. okay and i got fouled in the first game, hence my injured wrist. darn and i missed both free throws due to dat. oh well, i need alot of experience. a lot of it..but then again maybe certain ppl shuldnt solo so much...
kay im at home now cuz im sick with sore throat and fever. my head's throbbing. argh.

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1:49 PM
*************** Sunday, March 06, 2005

okay im not exactly that happy as i think im retarded in understanding math and sciences. *braindead-_-
all in my mind now is bball.
focus focus and concentrate. wahaha
nxt week sabbaticals so itz rather slack. hol hw has been given, much to the dismay of all of us, cuz math hw dominates and oh gosh im gonna have a hell of a time (note:literally)
tmr's friendlies, hm am i gonna be hot on fire or am i gonna juz be someone on a team...

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12:40 AM
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